2 in 1 day?

Well today was interesting. Have you ever woken up and just knew it was going to be an awful day? Even though you've looked forward to this day for months,you still have that feeling in your stomach? Well I did today. I had to wake up at 630 for work and I got there 15 minutes early so I sat in my car hating my life until 7:15. I worked until 12 and planned on getting lauren after work to come hang out at my house then go to the show we had tonight. But at about 11:30 Lauren texts me and said her mom knows she's dating someone(mind you her mom is completely insane and won't let her date who she wants even though she's 18 so we've been sneaking around her the past 3 months.) Well she keeps texting me more and more bad news throughout the day and her mom went crazy and ran away or some shit? i just take it as ok I'm sure she'll cool down after a little bit.Well a few hours later I get the text saying we can't see each other anymore. And that coming from a person you've put so much work into making things work so well and falling in love with isn't too great. We have such a good connection and get along so well it just amazes me how perfect we are for each other(sorry for sounding like I love dick but I've never once felt this way towards a girl like this) Well me being in a shitty state of depression as it is try to basically end that resulting in me being mentally and physically unstable to do anything.I tried driving to jasons to go to the show but I had to pull over and eventually turn around cause I wasn't going to make it there too well and if I did I didn't want to hurt jason if I ended up driving to AJ's. Now I have no idea if I have any friends left and I'm not gonna be able to see my girlfriend much at all until her mom finally stops being so stubborn and finally meets me. I'm still dizzy and feeling goofy so I'm not too sure as to what's going on and I'm sure none of this makes sense but I just really need a place to vent. I really want to go to a therapist or something because I have way too many problems to just keep inside. Especially if I try 'hurting' myself as often as I do.Or at least think about it. I just hope everyone is gonna forgive me for being an idiot. but whatever,I just really need to get my life in order. I need to do something about this depression since it's only getting worse over the years. I still remember the first day i realized I had it I was real little. My parents were divorced from kindergarten through 6 grade and I'd come home from my mom's house on sundays and just cry in my room for no real reason. I don't think kids that young should have to do that.It really sucks how many problems I have and how shy i am so I don't open up to anyone to ever vent therefore they just get worse. And writing about it on the internet doesn't really help at all,it just makes me look pathetic.Well I really don't know how much this thing makes sense now so I'll just end it here.