New Year's eve

So today is the last day of 2008. God damn this year flew by fast. I can still remember this time last year like it was a week ago. Well I guess I could say it's been a good year. I guess. Whatever, hopefully 2009 will be better.

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So this weekend crucial dudes had 2 awesome shows. We played the pennsville bowling alley which didn't have too much of a big turnout but it was one of the funnest show we've played in a while. I mean playing with 9 other solid bands pretty much promises it to be awesome. And last night we played charm city art space in baltimore,maryland. it was such a good time and a sick venue. We played with Kingfish,caleb lionheart, and Everyone Everyone both nights and they're all super nice dudes and so good. I got the everyone everywhere 7" and haven't stopped listening to it since. they're such solid dudes and amazing musicians. One of the best live bands I've ever seen.

Lately, my parents have been talking about moving to Delaware so it really got me thinking about my plans for the next year. I am sure as hell never going to live in Delaware so I've got to keep working as much as I can and saving up so by this time next year I'll hopefully either be out or on my way. I want to move back to south philadelphia just a little farther in (towards market or even south.) When I lived there before I used to LOVE driving down there and parking on Pine street and walking around aimlessly. It's such a beautiful area and so much going on. I really can't wait to go back there but I've got to keep saving up so I can move by myself and actually enjoy it haha. I mean living with my sister was pretty rad but the whole fact of not having my own room sucked and coming home to my house smelling like pot 5 out of 7 days of the week wasn't too cool. but at least I know I can manage to live there now as long as I've got all my priorities set straight. But until then it's boring old pine hill for me. And living with my family really motivates me to get out. As much as I love them I can't stand them sometimes. I guess that's normal though for being 18? whatever I just bought Left 4 Dead for my computer so I'm gonna go waste a few hours of work playing that. Such a fun game I highly suggest it to anyone who is into zombies and all that shit. 

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So all I really want for christmas is for my dog to be full grown. That way I can teach him to drive me places. But really I can't fucking wait.

Vinyl

So over the past 3 or 4 months I've been collecting various records and I thought it'd be cool if I posted em up here if anyone's down for trading or something?!

Against Me!-As the eternal cowboy LP

Against Me!-Disco before the breakdown 7"

Against Me!-New wave LP Clear yellow

Against Me!-Reinventing Axle Rose LP

Against Me!-Thrash Unreal single 7"

Blink 182-they came to conquer uranus 7"

The Bouncing Souls-How I spent my summer vacation LP

Bridge and tunnel-S/T Grey 7"

Explosions in the sky-All of a sudden I miss everyone 2xLP

Gorilla Biscuits-7"

International Superheroes of hardcore-takin' it Ova White splatter LP

Latterman/Naktomi plaza split 7"

Latterman-No matter where we go LP

Latterman-turn up the punk,we'll be singing LP

Latterman-We are still alive purple LP

Lifetime-S/T Blue LP

Minor Threat-out of step white LP

Minus the Bear-They make beer commercials like this Magenta LP

New Found Glory-Tip of the iceberg white splatter 7"

Rancid-And out come the wolves picture disk LP

The Ramones-Road to ruin LP

Saves the day-through being cool white LP

Saves the day-Sound the alarm LP

Say Anything-Is/was a real boy 2XLP

Shorebirds-s/t pink 7"

Weezer-Pinkerton LP

The Wonder Years- Won't be pathetic forever orange 7" (63/200)

All in Mint/excellent condition.

So....

I'm moving back home already,not positive when but I'm aiming by the end of the week. I fucking LOVE south Philadelphia but it's not time for me to grow up this fast yet. But I promise I will be back within the next few years,mark my words! 

Speaking of 'growing up' I'm thinking about growing down.My ears that is lawl. I mean not once in the past 2 year of stretching have I thought about going back like I have lately. I fucking love my lobes but like always,some good things must end. I'm tired of girlfriends parents judging me by my looks and not by who I really am. I know they won't be a 20g,but since I'm not an idiot and didn't rush stretching they shouldn't be too bad on healing. Not too positive if I actually am yet but just been thinking about it a lot lately. And maybe I won't get mistaken for a fucking scene metal band kid hahaha. After taking my septum out I feel like I am starting over or something.I had that jawn for a solid two years but I can't go anywhere without seeing that shit now so it feels nice knowing I'm not mixed in with hot topic kids nearly as much anymore. And get it's not like I can't just go get more tattoos for every piercing I take out haha. I love how I want to get take out my plugs and let my lobes heal but still plan on plenty of ink in the near future. I make sense right? whatever!

P.S. Real christmas trees rule! it's been years since I had one and me and my sister finally went out this week and got one. Nothing beats that smell! FUCK YEAH CHRISTMAS!

Plain and simple,

I don't want to be alive anymore.

I can't really look back on my life and find something I'm proud of at all.

I wish my heart would explode and finally rot away.